i'll spend my life in misery, i'd sacrifice this world to hold you. no breath left inside of me, shattered glass keeps falling;

lost and lonely;
scared and hiding;
blind without youu.
when the world comes crashing down and the skies begin to fall; i'll wait for youu.
when the days turn long and old and my skin turns into stone; i'll wait for you.
when the pain seems just too much and my heart starts beating outta touch, i don't need a thing; i'll wait for youuuu

i don't think anyone in the world understands how much this song means to me right now<3;
wait for you by atreyu is officially the greatest song ever inventedddd<3 and i love tyler for showing it to me and making it our songgg:)

okaaaay, mine and his songs since december of 2009 w/ on&off talkingg and hating each otherr? hahaa:) ;;
ice cream &cakeee commercial:)
drop it low girl - ester dean (looooong story bahahahahaa :p)
say goodnight - bullet for my valentine <3
beautiful - eminem <3
wait for you- atreyu <3
bump n' grind - r kelly <3???

why bump n' grind is one of our songs, i don't knoww. but i still love it:)


meeeeee and tyler are talking again. as in friends..... and more:)
i love himmmmm sooooo much. he just makes my dayyy<3:)

he's one of the sweetest kids i effing know<3 :p


every dayyyy, he texts me-
hey beautifulll.
how are you cutiee?
you're gorgeousss.
i love youuu<3
yourrr hot:)


<33333

the otherr day we were supposed to hang out and walk down to the ice cream store together. my mom said yes and dad said nooo :/ anywaysss;; so he ended up going and getting icecream with geoff. then he texted me: come outsidee .
me: why??:)
himm: just do it. :p
me: i looooook likeeeee crapp.
him: well i don't care. i want a huggg.

i go outside....
him and geoff rode their bikes to my house so tyler could give me a hug:) <3 i love my life <3
i sit withh him and stuff like every dayy<3
if he had rode the bus today we were supposedd to kiss.
idkk if i talked about easterr on here. but on easter he was at my house for like 2 1/2 hours and we endedd up kissing:) and i'm supposed to make out with him tomorrow at st. mary's festivallllll? :p
i'mmmm sooo nervous.
he was talking to me last night and was likeeee;;;
me: i think i should get a hug tomorrow?:)
himm: alrightt sounds good:) anything else? :p
me: nooo. i think that can wait till saturday:)
him: pleaseeeee
me: saturdayyyy!
him: onn the buss. :p
me: calmm down tyler, saturdayy:)
him: how bout i let you sit on the insidee?;)
me: uhmmm. how about saturday?:)
himm: how about just a kiss tomorrowww? pleaseee? :p
me: maybeee
him: pleaseee
:p
pleaseeeeee :p
please?????:)
me: i said maybee!:)
him: i said yes :p
me: fineeee:)
him: oh crap. i'm not gonna be on the bus tomorrow.







that made me sadd ):
but he was wearing the sexy color purple today, which made me forgive him:)
purpleeee<3



mmmkkk.
welll, we'll talk laterrrr. kbyeeeee:)<3;

and i just can't keep living this way; so starting today, i'm breaking outta this cage. i'm standing up, i'm gonna face my demons♥

let's do ittttttttttttttttttttttt, bitchessss:)
gottaaaa phonee<3
not unlimited textinggg, but maybe laterrr.
boreddd.
talking to calebbb.
that's about it....
love himm:)


mmkkk. typee more later, when i feel like it:)




loveee you, byeeee!

that party last night was awfully crazy, i wish we taped it;;

mmk, hi
soo i had no track today because of the rainnn(:
i was so happy!
so caleb is in sooo much trouble ):
i feel horrible. but he told me that i'm his best friend and he couldn't bring himself to stay mad at me,
and that he loved me so he forgave me. i still feel bad ):
since there was no track today, i went home with alyssaaa(: her sister jocelynn and i are pretty close and she
was upsett, so i was trying to make her feel badd. and i was helping lyssa with her french homework.
i just got done talking to ericc &kayla on facebookkkkk. and now i'm boredd.

when you feel it in your body, you found somebody who makes you change your ways, like hanging with your creww. said you act like you're ready, but you don't really know. and everything in your past you wanna let it goo<3 i've been there, done it, fuckedd around. after all that, this is what i founddd. nobody wants to be alone; if you're touched by the words in this song, then baby: you got it, you got it badd.
i looove that songg(:

mine and caleb's song is i'm awesome hahaa(;

muthaafuckerr, i'm awesome; no you're not, dude, don't lie!. i'm awesomee, drivin' around in ma mom's ridee(;

i have ELAs tomorrowww ): and then math state tests next week. effffffml.

alrightyyy; well imaa go.
go have funn with your badselfss(;
peaceee the hellll outtt!

baby i love you i never wanna let you go; the more i think about the more i wanna let you know, that everything you do, is super fucking cutee

baaaabbbyyy i love youuu, i never wanna let you go
that is absolutely the cutest freeking song hahaa.
well, today was interestingg.
so i'm with sarah and we decided to walk to caleb's houseee cause we were gonna hang out, then he couldn'tt, so we walked to audrey's and hungg out for like 20 minutes. then walking back, caleb comes running down the hill with his shirt off and a lacrosse stick in his handd? yummmm <3>
andd we ended up staying there for like 2 1/2 hourss. then some stupid bratt across the street called the cops cause she thought caleb was throwing rocks at her cows with his lax stickk. AND WE WERE NOT. AT ALL? dumbass :/ ticks me off.
soo then caleb got in trouble with his parents and grandparents for a cop coming, even though the cop understands and KNOWS and told caleb's parents that we didn't do anything. now caleb's phone is gone for like a month or two and he can't hang out with anyone. and his familyy hates me and sarah. eff my lifee.
then last night calebb wanted to play manhunt with me and sarah but he had brought tyler home with himm so he had to come to. SUCHAA EFFING MANWHORE. I REALLY HATE HIM WITH ALL OF MY HEART.
i didn't even say two mean words to the kid and he turns around, "dumb bitch, shut the fuck up."
i turn around, "Excuse me?"
"shut the hell up."
"YOU shut the hell up, fucking ass."
calebb comes up to me later and goes, "what's wrong? you're making me sad krystiana."
"if someone was making such an ass of themself we wouldn't have this problem?"
tyler just goes," I'M JUST FUCKING KIDDING CALM THE HELL DOWN. YOU'RE SO MUCH EFFING DRAMAA. BLAH BLAH BLAH."
i want to punch him. caleb wouldn't let me. screw this shittt, i dont gotta put up with this manwhore of a piece of garbage talkingg crapp to the girl he just made out with on easter? SCREW FUCKING YOU(:
caleb and sarah were on my sidee so ohhhwellll(:
sarah just turns around, "tyler, just shut up."
calebb, "why are you such a douche to her? what did she do to youu? you're suchaa playerr, she thinkss so too."
THANKYOU SOMEBODY. PRAISE THE LORD.


kwell, i'm done venting about all this shizz.
to pretty much end this, screw tyler anthony wolfee. i love caleb michael strope and sarah katherine stanton. so stfuuu stupid manwhore :/


kkbyeee

&save your heart for someone that's worth dying for. don't give it away, torn apartt; never getting what you've been crying for...it's always the same

on, on to the next one- on to the next one;;

now walk it outtt;; awwwhhhh SNAP! now rock, rock, rock, rockk; you can do it all by yo'selff. baaabygirl, what's your namee?

hahaaa-
well, i'm sore.
second day of track practice=ouchhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
just like my upper thighhhs?
it was pouringgg.
and... i would type all the stuff we did; but, i'm too lazy(:
you'll deal.

conversation: me&tylerr (just before i forgettt :p);;

me: ksoo i'm talking to this one kidd that just imed me? idek who it is hahaa(: wait. yes i do!
tyler: hahaaa. bett he's a weirdoo :x
me: thaaanks? you're nicee :p nahh he's not that weird... just kinda... unattractive, annoying &rude(:
tyler: awe poor kid ):
me: hahaa he'll deal. i'm nothing to be depressed overr.
tyler: haha, suree :p
me: well at leastt i don't think so.(:
tyler: well i can't say nothin :x ...............(he's dating one of my best friendsss)
me: ohh i see :x thankss(:
tyler: hahaaa yeahh(;


andd so onn?
i miss US. like... me&himm.
i try soo hard not to let their 'relationshipp' bug me but it kinda doess ):
i'll get over it, of coursee. i already have starteddd :x

i might be going to hudson valley to go shoppingg with haley tomorrow after i get outta trackk(:
we're gonna go shopping, &stay in a hotel and stufff(:
i'm excitedd.
then saturday i'm supposed to go to this thing with taylorrr
love that girrrrl, mannn(:

well ima peace ittt.
showerrr, then bedd, then schoollll, trackk, haley's mom is picking me upp, i'm going to her house to get changedd, straighten hairr and crapp, then to saugerties = hudson valley(:

ksoo, byee

come on get higherr, loosen my lips; faith &desire in the swing of your hips;;

it's cool when people make out constantly?
i mean really;; i just effing love itttt<3<3<3
nahh, i'm just playinnn'.
no, i hate it. like with a passion.
so tyler and i WERE talking againn, like, 'talking'.
but noww he's dating haleyy?
cool shittt, right?
i know.
but i don't care i guess.
but he's like always feeling her up and kissing her and hugging herr.
i mean really, i'm all for PDA;; if i didn't used to like the person and the person who's being felt up is my best friendd? i love lifee, duhh<3
i guess i don't caree, gotta get over it. shit happens. =/
they're both like my best friendss so, y'know...(:
ohhwell; love isn't everlastingg. even though alotta people say that it iss? whoahh, i totally just changed a love quote. oops.
ehh, whateverr.
no one's textingg meee ):
i feel unlovedd.
well, i'm nott.
tyler told me i'm lovedd(:
hahaa.
people are great;; especially when haley fights with 2 people at the mall for about the same reasonn.
so caitlin flipped shit because olivia is really hurting haley with how she's always with jesse... who haley dated for 8 months, but broke up with because he treated her like crapp. so then caitlin tells olivia off. then caitlin gets mad with haley for 'ditchingg' her, even though her and tyler just went for a walkk. but now caitlin wants to be friends with olivia again because she suddenly 'feels bad' for telling olivia off.
(note: she only feels bad because now she's not really friends with haley anymoree.)
^just thought i'd add thatt.
so screw that shitt.
but tyler is paranoid about haley cheating on him or somethingg. apparently, he can't be happy. because every time he really likes a girl, people need to run their mouths. it's ridiculous. why are people always trying to make him out to be a horrible kidd? i mean i love himm he's my best friendd. i might've hated him a couple timess, but who doesn't hate everyone at one point?

anywayss....;;

-first track practice/meeting tomorrow.. mostly for paperwork and stuff. (3:30-4:30)
-court tomorrow night... blehh. (6:30-to who knows how longg?)
-hanging out with this amazing girl named haley wilson this weekendd;; i love herr(:


it's 9:23... i can't decide if i should take a second shower today or nott, just so i don't have to wake up early tomorrow? idek. i'm too lazy. i need caffienee...
i didn't spill monster all over morgan again this time at the mall(: i just put 4968439056834 sour skittles and 3 pieces of trident gum in hers while her and caitlin were in the bathroom(: haley, tyler and i have gooooood times togetherr(;
hahaaa, i love ittt<3(:

i just feel kindaa stupid that really the only reason i'm not with tylerr is because i wouldn't kiss him wednesday? i'm kinda glad i didn't, because him and ally got right back together after thatt. then broke up thursday. again. then ended up liking haley somehow because i couldn't go to the mall friday nightt? whateverr childrenn;; it's all good(:
even though caitlin yelled at me for 'letting myself get played' by tyler or some crazy shitt.
stupidd chickk. i hate people sometimes =/
especially girls who are bitter 'cause guys break up with them and her best friendd wants to make out with her boyfriend in privatee? better than her doing it in public; at least, that's my opinionn.
screw peoplee(:

ohwell;; well i'ma peace itttt.
loveyouu x1,000 baaby(:


xo, (:

i wish i knew how, (your eyes are like starlight now), to break the spell, (i'll take your hat, hair looks swell.

But baby it's cold outsideee<3
What's poppin'? My lip gloss? I know. ;D
17 days until Christmass<3
So, here's my daily dose of drama:
This morning, I got on my morning transfer bus and there were like NO seats. So I shouted:
"ARE YOU KIDDING ME?"
Then Tyler W told this Shannon girl to move and sit with him so I could sit diagonal from him. So then he talked to me the entire bus ride and walked me inside all the way to the cafeteria. And we were talking about hot snow? I dunno, hahaah.
So then Audrey wrote his name on my hand for the Hand Game. It said: Hug Tyler W or Else!!!
So when Katie, Pat, Tyler H and I came up the stairs Tyler W and Eric were like, right there. So I stuck my hand out for him to read, but he gave me like 3 high fives first, hahaa. I'm like, "NO, READ IT."
Then Eric gasps, "WAIT! I CAN'T SEE IT!" Then he reads it and gasps again. Tyler laughs.
Then I said bye to the 3 of them and then Tyler comes back around the corner to talk to me. He shouts, "Well Krystiana, I've guess you gotta do it!"
I said, "Fine I will. Save me a seat on the morning bus tomorrow!"
Hahaaa<3
He's funny (from this morning, not THIS part is funny,)
My chorus concert was last night; his is tonight.

Uhmmmm. Can't think of anything elsee.

Byeass(:

Tiana-marie out fersureee, sonn!

love&LOVE<3